interesting "conversations"

an expanded metaphor from a "conversation"


I always want to have everything 'in my own hands'. Everything has to be organized in my head. I am set on the idea that I am the only one capable of opening the lock to the office of my mind. I think I have the option of hiding papers on issues I don't want to think about. I like to be able to ignore certain things, to dump them in the wastebasket which, incidentally, is overflowing, because my waste basket never gets emptied. I think God likes to poke His finger in my alphabetized files, in my cabinets, in my drawers, in my waste basket and fling the papers He finds all over in the office of my mind. Just so He can see my cells scurrying around picking up papers and trying to find a way to stop it from happening again. And then He tells me that I don't need all the file folders, cabinets, drawers, and (especially) waste basket that take up so much space in my office. He tells me that He is my file folder, He is the place where I should place all my cares and all my worries and all my thoughts. He tells me that all I need in my office is a single paper that says, "I love you, Lord, and I lift my voice to worship you." But, my cells don't react to His unspoken words. They continue to act at MY command, they continue to stack and re-stack again and again so that I can feel I am in control. And God pokes His finger again, scattering papers, and I clap my hands and order my cells about, re-organizing, trying to build a better structure, laying paperweights everywhere in an effort to stop this invisible, unstoppable finger. Never realizing that no amount of paperweights can keep my thoughts in order.



Do not let your hearts be troubled. Trust in God, trust also in me. John 14:1
Cast all your anxiety on him because he cares for you. 1 Peter 5:7
Do not be terrified; do not be discouraged, for the LORD your God will be with you wherever you go. Joshua 1:9
So, whether we live or die, we belong to the LORD. Romans 14:8
The LORD your God is with you, he is mighty to save. He will take great delight in you, he will quiet you with his love, he will rejoice over you with singing. Zephaniah 3:17
Do not let your hearts be troubled and do not be afraid. John 14:27

I iced it.

Satisfied?



I also listened to Casimir Pulaski Day on repeat several times until I decided I wanted to hear Come Thou Fount, which I then did.

UGGGGHGHGHGHGHHHHHHHGGGGGG

Stupid foot.

more on this later...maybe

I'm excited, girls.

Casimir Pulaski Day is a lovely song, a very lovely song indeed.

Pleasant is a beautiful word.
Its rare usage contributes to its warmth. However, its rare usage also causes an untrusting attitude, as though the hearer is unsure of what the definition declares.
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Psalm 16:6 The boundary lines have fallen for me in pleasant places; surely I have a delightful inheritance.
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Psalm 133:1 How good and pleasant it is when brothers live together in unity!
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Psalm 135:3 Praise the LORD, for the LORD is good; sing praise to his name, for that is pleasant.
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Psalm 147:1 Praise the LORD. How good it is to sing praises to our God, how pleasant and fitting to praise him!
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Proverbs 2:10 For wisdom will enter your heart, and knowledge will be pleasant to your soul.
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Proverbs 3:17 Her ways are pleasant ways, and all her paths are peace.
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Proverbs 16:24 Pleasant words are a honeycomb, sweet to the soul and healing to the bones.
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Proverbs 16:24 Pleasant words are a honeycomb, sweet to the soul and healing to the bones.
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Proverbs 27:9 Perfume and incense bring joy to the heart, and the pleasantness of one's friend springs from his earnest counsel.
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Isaiah 32:12 Beat your breasts for the pleasant fields, for the fruitful vines
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Hebrews 12:11 No discipline seems pleasant at the time, but painful. Later on, however, it produces a harvest of righteousness and peace for those who have been trained by it.

Nadine's brain is somewhere dark and damp and covered with spiders.

falsely cheery voice:
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Hello!
You've reached Nadine's brain's communication centre.
I'm sorry, but Nadine's brain is not in right now and may not be back for a while.
Please leave a message and Nadine's brain will get back to you as soon as it can.
Have a nice day!
~beep~
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truely grumpy voice:
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Nadine's brain is out of commission.
Don't try to talk to it.
Do not disturb.
In fact, never try to communicate with Nadine's brain again.
You'll find it goes a lot better for you.
~beep~
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dark and damp and spiders are not an essential part of a brain's good breakfast.
in actual fact, one's brain will find that dark and damp and spiders are slowly killing the brain cells necessary for one's survival.

just to shape things up

I'm learning some things.

I'm not really sure what I'm learning yet.

I'm learning about Calculus.

I'm not entirely certain what learning is.

I'm learning about GOD.

I'm not in the right mindset for learning.

I'm learning about grammar.

I'm tired of learning.

I'm learning that I need to give GOD praise.

I'm willing to learn.

I'm learning about decisions.

I'm not learning fast enough.

I'm learning that I don't trust.

I'm waiting for other people to learn.

I'm learning that I need people.

I'm not giving myself time to learn.

I'm learning that most nouns(person, place, or thing) don't need me.

I'm not trying hard enough to learn.

I'm learning that GOD doesn't need my praises.

I'm excited for learning.

I'm learning that trust is important.

I'm not learning slow enough.

I'm learning that I need GOD even more.

I'm frustrated with my lack of enthusiasm.

I'm learning that Dominican taught me things.

I'm yearning to be complete.

I'm learning that I'm never done learning.

I'm not determined to learn.

I'm learning that I want to be finished learning.

I want to learn.

I'm learning that I'm not necessarily an essential part in any project, even though I like to think that I am. I'm learning that I'm not always playing a centre-stage part, I'm often a stagehand. I'm learning that I don't need to be in the centre. I'm learning that GOD is the centre. I'm learning that Jesus Christ died on the cross to save sinners. I'm learning that I am a sinner. I'm learning that some things are important to me. I'm learning that the important things for me aren't necessarily important for other people. I'm learning that some people should be more important to me than they are. I'm learning that I take certain nouns(person, place, or thing) in my life for granted. I'm learning about what is important to me. I'm learning that I really do like grammar. I'm learning that maybe I should trust people. I'm learning that other people have intellectual things to say. I'm learning that even if something isn't intellectual, it's not automatically wrong and therefore shouldn't be ignored. I'm learning that learning is more difficult than I had originally planned. I'm learning that my plans aren't important. I'm learning that GOD's plans are not bound by my plans. I'm learning that I still need to learn. I'm learning that I need GOD's help to learn.

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Cast all your anxiety on Him for He cares for you.

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krakow

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Woot. Fun in the airport.

hm.

First, thank you Maria for appreciating the "talent" of consistency in procrastination. : )


So, tomorrow I will be going to the Dominican Repulic, along with eleven other people to help in the process of the erection of a school. I'm almost getting excited. I'm also very nervous. I'd like to request that you pray for us. But, also pray for the people who don't go far away to do mission work. Pray for the people who do mission work every day, the people who show Christ's love with their whole heart, the people who

live

for Christ

everyday.

probably not

I'm not so sure that

consistency

.in

.procrastination

is such a favourable

quality.

the new york times

crossword. woo.

see you eventually, maybe

You know what?
It doesn't really matter if I won't see or talk to you in a while.

We are united

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in CHRIST.

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thanks Ryan.